ablinkofmyeyes

Late in the night.
I looked into the bag.
Settled for some cereal and cold chocolate milk.
Digged further into the bag.
I took out some crisps and a huge packet of chocolate biscuit.
The craving won't stop.
I fumbled around for some more.
The two bars of chocolates caught my eyes.
I devoured them hungrily.


Now, i felt damn terrible.
My stomach is so bloated that i felt like puking.
Its time to let them rest for a couple of days. =(
Im so greedy. =(
Sigh.


Looked up in the internet and saw this.
Binge-eating/complusive overeating.


The key features of binge eating disorder are:

1)Frequent episodes of uncontrollable binge eating
2)Feeling extremely distressed or upset during or after bingeing
3)No regular attempts to “make up” for the binges through vomiting, fasting, or over-exercising.


Behavioral symptoms of binge eating and compulsive overeating
Inability to stop eating or control what you’re eating
Rapidly eating large amounts of food
Eating even when you’re full
Hiding or stockpiling food to eat later in secret
Eating normally around others, but gorging when you’re alone
Eating continuously throughout the day, with no planned mealtimes

Emotional symptoms of binge eating and compulsive overeating
Feeling tension that is only relieved by eating
Embarrassment over how much you’re eating
Feeling numb while bingeing—like you’re not really there or you’re on auto-pilot.
Never feeling satisfied, no matter how much you eat
Feeling guilty, disgusted, or depressed after overeating
Desperation to control weight and eating habits

Im very very very guilty right now.

Can't believe i abused my body like that.